It has been a dream of mine to start this blog, business, podcast and website for years. Several years ago, my work involved traveling all across the great state of Texas. To fill my time on the road I started listening to podcasts. I could not get enough of them! I would listen to influencers like Lewis Howes, Michael Hyatt, Chalene Johnson, Ted Talks, Tony Robbins and many more. I was so enamored with the podcasts and would drive around thinking I want to do that! Every day I would research and google how to podcast. I bought a mic, designed a logo, created a website, and started writing down topics I wanted to talk about on my podcast.
Then... my life fell apart, my marriage fell apart, and my dreams of creating a business fell apart. I was married to an abusive alcoholic for 19 years. Not all 19 years were abusive and I have learned through lots of therapy that alcoholism is a progressive disease. I am sure he was an alcoholic long before I wanted to believe it or recognize it and even longer before He wanted to recognize or admit it. Although I was coming to grips with reality six years ago, it took another three years before I would actually get enough courage and strength to file for divorce.
I truly believed he would get sober and our life would get back to "normal." The problem was normal was a far cry in the distant past if there ever was a normal. I was in survival mode at its finest and most days the only thing that got me through were my kids and some kind of exercise.
After my divorce was final I moved to a new home, found a new job that did not involve travel, and dove into getting healthy; physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I prayed, meditated, exercised, ran, walked, and surrounded myself with like minded emotionally healthy people that I call my tribe! And... I met and fell in love with my soul mate; Tony. We knew from the moment we met we had a connection. We believed with all our heart God brought us together.
Our relationship flourished and 18 months later we were engaged. I will save the details of the proposal for another post but let me just tell you it was magical. We did not want a long engagement and could not wait to start our married life together. A few months later we bought a house, combined our life and family and starting down the path of our second chance at the second half of our life.
Our second chance never panned out the way we planned, Tony was tragically killed six weeks after we bought our house when a tree fell on his car in a storm while he was driving to pick up his son from baseball. My dreams, my hopes, my love and my future were forever changed. We had a love and passion that was nothing like we had ever experienced before. My life was turned upside down the day he was killed and I am slowly picking up the pieces of my life. The hole it has left in my heart is so incredibly deep. I was truly blessed to know him and love him and walk through a short period of life with him.
Tony knew of my dreams to create and design a business that was both inspiring and passionate. He was constantly encouraging and supporting me to get it started again. So, six months after he died I launched my new website with Inspirational Sticky Notes. I am now posting my first blog and the podcast will be coming soon. I love that I get to share my journey with you.